Freaky Fridays

So Sophie, this is the dress I was thinking of wearing to your wedding reception! LOL (Without the half basketballs for each boob… or maybe I should… hehe)

Yep, another themed Friday at InfiKnowledge – Dress & Tie day. Taken quite literally by half the participating males hehe.

2 Links

The Boy With The Incredible Brain – This video is quite fascinating. I wish I had this man’s amazing brain abilities. The “real Rainmaker” [OOPS DH just emailed me to say that it's not rainmaker it's rainman!! my bad!] is also featured in this video. (The man who inspired the Rainmaker movie.) It’s really interresting to learn about the link between those savants and autism.

Cooking Light Done Right – I love recipes. I love recipes with good pictures even more. So light recipes with good pictures and free is great :)

Me want!!

I haven’t read a single Harry Potter book yet can you believe it? I’ve seen all the movies though. Whenever I read a book and see the movie after, I’m always dissapointed in the movie. So hopefully by reading the books after I’ve seen the movies I’ll love the books hehe. Isn’t this box set cute ? Coming out September 18, 2007!

This is what I want to do when I grow up

Last Sunday and Monday nights I couldn’t sleep for different reasons. (Going back to work after vacay, Guylaine losing all her stuff in the fire, etc.) I guess I did a lot of thinking in bed. One of the biggest things is that I’ve finally decided what I want to be when I grow up. First of all, I’ve decided to stop feeling ashamed of being an administrative assistant aka Secretary. I’m going to stop saying that I’m ‘just’ a secretary. Because I’ve finally admitted to myself that I love doing it. Maybe not the job I have right now, solely because of the lack of work and wishing I was busier and felt more productive. But I love working for my provincial government and I love my department.

Yeah there are some funny people at work, but there are funny people everywhere. Plus sometimes I think the more I complain about some people at work’s odd behaviors, the more I secretly love making people laugh with those stories lol. Does that make sense? I love an office environment, I love business, I love anticipating other’s needs, and honnestly my job really fits my personality. Think about the stereotypical secretary: very friendly, in a good mood most of the time, shy, great at analyzing behaviors, etc. That’s me.

While I was lying in bed wide awake and thinking about all this, suddenly I remembered something. Back in college when I was taking my multimedia design & project management course, I was secretly wishing I had the guts to transfer to the administrative assistants course. I’m not shitting you. I remember thinking how I’d get to work in an office, work on computers, and then leave it all at the office at 5pm until the next morning. I mean, I loved multimedia design. I’m a very creative and artsy person, but I’m so sensitive that I always take it personally when someone doesn’t love my work. And from the 3 web design jobs I’ve had since starting that course, the client often want really crappy looking things and you end up having to attach your name to something you don’t even like. (As long as the client is happy right?). So yeah, I secretly wanted to be a secretary, but I wouldn’t even have considered it because of the fear of what others would think of me for being ‘just’ a secretary.

I know I still have a lot of weight to lose, but already at -62lbs the difference in my self-esteem is amazing. I really think that now I could start being okay with my title. I mean, this isn’t my DREAM job, but it’ll do for now. I can still work on my dreams while paying my bills hehe. But here’s something that’s going to sound completely ludicrous : Since I was young, I’ve always wanted to help people learn about nutrition!! hah! I’m finally starting to believe that I might possibly one day look the part and look like somoene who applies their knowledge to their nutritional habits. I mean, even if I can help one person through my Reality Blog that would be something.

I feel like I haven’t rambled long enough for it to make as much sense for you as it does for me.. but I’m sure you’ve got better things to do right now than listen to me rambling hehe. So here’s my plan: I want to take preferably an online secretary course, or if that’s not possible evening classes. I want to finally be qualified on paper for this job so that the day that they don’t renew my contract I could get another administrative assistant’s job anywhere else. Right now no matter where I apply there will always be someone qualified or this job while I only have experience and no certificate. I’ve looked a little and CCNB Dieppe offers an online course and it’s really not that expensive. THEN if I ever reach my goal weight maybe I can look into ways to share my experience and knowledge with others who need to lose weight. But for now, I’m just going to focus on my self-esteem and stop thinking that a more prestigious job would make me appear like a better person.

Reality Bites

If you’re interrested, I just posted an update (weight loss) on my Reality Bites blog on ivillage :)

He wears his sunglasses at night..

It’s 80’s theme day at Steph’s work! (They have fun theme days every Friday this summer that they get dressed up for and they have prizes for best costumes etc. Fun!)

Look at my 80’s husband!! He looks like he’s lost weight eh? (He’s down 50lbs since January!! Well actually it’s a little more than that but it’s 50 recorded lbs because our scale only goes up to a certain number so he weighed ‘error’ for a week hehe)

I’m so proud of him!!

How do you like my permanent marker home made Vuarnet t-shirt? hehe

Squirt me!

A nasal spray to relieve shyness ?? Awesome in theory, for someone as shy as me. But could I squirt too much up my nose and overdose on it and lose all my inhibitions and strip naked and talk without censoring my thoughts? hehe

Heather’s Wednesday Blog Challenge # 18

HWBC # 18 - Confess away. It could be anything. You don’t pay your bills on time. You haven’t eaten a vegetable in three years. You don’t know your times tables. You wear the same underwear two days in a row. You haven’t yet washed the pot that’s been in your sink for the past two months. Your neighbors complain because you mow your lawn too infrequently. You kiss your pet on the mouth. You talk to yourself out loud – and answer yourself. You’re wearing your old e-rings and wedding band just because they look pretty and happened to be right next to the computer (*blush*).

*****These are my confessions (sing it like Usher! :P)

• I am secretly a yeti. I don’t shave my legs nearly as often as I should. I can even go for like 2 months in the winter. I have to wear my knee high compression socks and everything so… yeah. Poor Steph. :P
• Back in the 6th grade when Hypercolor t-shirts were in (I had the purple one that turned pink when someone touched it hehe.) I used to lock myself in the bathroom and grab my boobs and watch the two pink boobie handprints fade LOL!
• When I go to the grocery store to buy strawberries, most of the time I’ll lift the top pallet just to have my pick from the untouched full pallet of strawberries under. Even if theres a perfectly good pack of strawberries on the first level. In my mind they’re ‘fresher’ on the bottom layers and less people have touched them. For the fruits and veggies displays, I always reach for the fruit or veggie on the very top of the display where it looks like less people have touched them, even though I wash them at home.
• I have a wool cardigan sweater here at work that I’ve had since I was in the 9th grade lol!
• I secretly LOVED watching Victoria Beckam in “Coming to America” earlier this week!
• Okay these are becoming less and less interresting, but I love seing Jen stuck in that red unitard all week on BB8!! But I would have loved even more to see Dick be stuck in the red unitard that would have been hilarious!! hehe
• That’s it for now… check for updates though I’ll update if I can think of more confessions (that I don’t mind 50 people reading hehe).

Back to real life…

I’m back at work this morning. *cries*. I’m thankful for the great weather we had this past weekend, but man my vacation weather sucked hehe. But there are worst things in life than crappy weather…. My best friend’s appartment burned down yesterday afternoon :( She’s okay, she had called in sick from work that day and was taking a nap in her pyjamas when it happened. She said that she thought she wouldn’t be able to get out.

It’s an old victorian style house divided into appartment and she lives.. lived alone in an upstairs appartment. When she woke up the fire had already spread to the back of her appartment. scary!! I’m sooo glad that she’s okay, but I couldn’t sleep all night, thinking about how she’s lost every single thing she owns. Everything she’s worked since college for. Not only the new furniture, new computer, new kitchen things, new clothes etc that she bought in the last few months, but the saddest thing to me is the irreplaceable things : family pictures, Africa souvenirs, a vase she inherited from her grandfather, the letters exchanged between her and her biological mother, etc etc. The worst thing is that she didn’t even have renter’s insurance. I know I didn’t think about getting that until I rented a house with Steph.

They don’t even know yet what caused the fire, they’re investigating. I’m trying to think of a way to help… the only thing I’ve come up so far is trying to scrounge up some money for a Wal-mart gift certificate so that she can at least buy the basics… toothbrush, underwear, shoes…. Does anyone have better suggestions ?

About Self-Esteem

Am I the only one who’s embarrassed to talk about self-esteem ? Does that mean I need more self-esteem ?

Anyway, I just saw this in my igoogle feeds : 10 Quick tips to improve self-esteem.

The ones I struggle the most with are # 4, 5 and 7…. For those of you who don’t struggle with 4,5 and 7, do you have additional tips ? hehe. 4 and 5 are just sooo hard for me. And it all comes down to not wanting anyone to think I’m not a nice person/caring too much about what other people think.. but how when someone says that they don’t care what others think of them, are they lying? How can they not care? If someone wouldnt care what others think, why would they pluck their eyebrows, shave their legs and get any body part waxed ? Okay these are all hair themed for some reason. That’s what I hate doing the most that’s why hehe.